Blog 8: Indentity Crisis

Sometimes I feel as if i'm always going through an identity crisis. For those who are always questioning what ethnicity or race I am, I'm 50% Cambodian, because my father is Cambodian, and im a quarter white (Portuguese and French), and a quarter African American because of my mother.

So basically, my mom is mulado, my dad is Cambodian. My grandma is white, and my grandpa is African American, on my moms side. My great grand parents on my mothers side are French and Portuguese. Ok, so now I know it's a lot to take in, but I wanted to get in depth, just in case you had any questions.

And why do I undergo identity crisis' you ask? Simple. Because i'm of so many ethnicities it's overwhelming, especially living in Lowell where it's extremely diverse. It's even more frustrating when I don't get accepted by my own people. My white family sees me as colored, my asian family sees me as black, and my black family... well yeah I don't know them. But I do know that in the black community i'm seen as asian.

Who am I then? To society i'm everything else. I can say i'm multicultural but what is that? Sometimes I feel like I don't even fit in with my own. Sometimes I feel like i'm more Cambodian than anything. It's just hard to find out what my TRUE culture is. But I guess this is what makes me unique. I try to find the positive sides about being multiracial. I get to experience different cultures and foods. It's cool. I love being a mystery to others. I love my look, and I love all of my family. But I still go through those times where I have an
                                                                                                                                   Indentiy crisis.
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Blog 7: Trilogy

I'm not sure if any of you had heard of The Weeknd, but he recently came out with an album Trilogy. It's sad to say that i was dissapointed because Trilogy was basically Echoes of Silence, House of Balloons, and Thursday (his three mixtapes) put together with all the songs remixed, in addition to 3 or 4 new songs that are REALLY good. The Weeknd, or Abel Tesfaye's (the singer who's also known as "The Weeknd") hypnotizing beats and ambient yet hip hop infused music has always caught my attention, but in this new mixtape the remixed versions of his music seems to suck really bad and make the original songs not even worth giving a listen to if you were new to his music. Though the remixed versions of their other songs suck, the few new songs are very good, like Twenty Eight, which has become my new favorite song. If you're interested in downloading their mixtapes, i'll provide a link at the end of this blog. I don't think you'll be able to access it in the school computers but if you try to use it at home you can download the mixtapes for FREE.

Link: Datpiff.com

Blog 6: Trying to Find A New Job

I know you guys are familiar with me working at Burger King, but i've realized I needed an upgrade. I understand money is money, and that I should be happy with having a job in the first place, but i do value happiness over most things... including money; therefore, i've decided to look for a job that suits me. Here's a few links to the places i want to work at:
Marshalls TJ Maxx Forever21 As you can see, they are all retail companies. Why would i want to work in retail you ask? Basically because i love fashion and clothing. The pay would be the same as Burger King, the stress i believe would be lower, and i get discounts on clothing!I really just pray I get a new job. I need the money, but I also want the discount on clothing, and the experience of working with clothing so that I can someday start my fashion career.

If any of you know jobs that are hiring, let me know :-D!

Blog 5: Volleyball Has Come to an End

Volleyball is finally over, and i do have to say it was quite a bitter sweet season with a bitter sweet ending. I enjoyed my time playing volleyball for 3 years at LHS. I remember being a little outside hitter in JV, then becomeing an outside hitter in Varsity last year, and a defensive specialist in Varsity this year. I've seen my skills as a volleyball player improve exponentially over the course of years. I've become more confident on the court, and stayed fit while doing something i absolutely love.

Now that the season is over, i've come to realize that this year will be the last year i'll ever get to bump, set, or kill a volleyball unless i make a team in college. Though we had 4 wins and 3 that didn't count (they weren't in our conference), i'll still celebrate the fact that we murdered Lawrence, our only MVCs win. I'll cherish the bus rides and the little petty arguments we had with each other.

I also made a lot of wonderful friends too, and i'll miss them so much.

Bye, bye, volleyball. It was "real". <3

Blog 4: I love working at Burger King because I LOVE TO EAT

I love working at Burger King because there's food around me 24/7. There are endless burgers, French fries, chicken nuggets, chicken sandwiches, deserts, HERSHEY PIES, and more! Sometimes when I’m having a bad day, and I have to work, I think about all the food I get to eat while I’m working. Sometimes I’d open every sauce there is and eat chicken nuggets, dipping them while I take orders. When I’m bored and not so hungry, I pick up some fresh fries and eat them. Sometimes I just eat because food is there. Half of the time I’m not hungry, but I’ll still eat a burger... or two. What's even better is having cravings, and going to work and satisfying all of them. I usually make myself an Oreo sundae when I’m having a sweet tooth. When I’m feeling healthy I’ll eat apple slices and dip it in caramel. When I’m aggravated I’ll just eat anything. Most of the time I’m picking at the jalapenos because I LOVE jalapenos.

It's a shame that the only reason why I go to work is to eat. But at least I get paid for it. Thank God I have a fast metabolism.

Blog 3: Happy Birthday to Gandhi & I

Yesterday was my brithday and i turned 18. I don't feel any different, but i do really like the day I was born on because it was also the day of birth for Gandhi, one of the worlds most famous civil rights activists.

Somehow, I can see the simularities in Gandhi's character to mine. He strived for peace on earth, and he was generally a very calm, cool, and collected person. I'm pretty much the same way. I love when everyone is getting along, and i enjoy helping those who need help.

It is weird. I mdon't know a lot about Gandhi, except for the fact that he lived to help those who were struggling, but i do see my personality as a reflection of his. I hurt when others are hurting, I don't like to see people being treated poorly or unfairly.

So when my birthday comes up every year, i just think about the life Gandhi lived, and how I should embrace the fact that we share the same birthdays. I'll keep the peace and the love going, while staying Syaraya Huon, with a little remnince of Gandhi.

Blog 2: Being A Good Person Never Works

Let me just cut to the chase, this week I've realized that maybe being a good person just never ever works out because people don't care if you're a good person, they will still be jerks.

So this week, a kid that I've recently befriended flipped out my friend and I because we were simply being girls and ranting on about things we hate. The kid that I befriended was a "nerd" or whatever people would label him... But I put all that "nerd" crap aside and made him my friend because we both enjoyed volleyball. People would call him names and basically put his whole being down, and I would stick up for him. I even kicked someone out of my lunch table for him to sit there.

The whole point is, when he flipped out on my friend and I, he told me that all I ever did was "put people down" and that I was "negative"... How dare he say that because I was always there for him when he was alone. I never put anyone down, I'm never negative. This basically pissed me off.

No matter how nice you are, people will never appreciate it, they'll always take it for granted. And when that one event happens when you're a bit out of your character and unkind, they're so quick to say that you're a bad person.

Being nice gets you NOWHERE...

Blog 1: Volleyball issues

The Stresses of Volleyball

            Last season of volleyball was probably one of the worst seasons of a sport I’ve experienced. There were too many personality clashes, cliques, and talking behind peoples backs. I can’t say that I wasn’t a part of any of the immature things going on, but I wasn’t the root of all the drama.

            This volleyball season was anticipated. Some girls who were returning from last year, and I, were excited to start new on a team that wouldn’t include the seniors whom were the source of drama, and our horrible 2-18 record.  We brainstormed things that would make our team closer and better, like team bonding, communication, positive attitudes, and all of those other optimistic thoughts people would have.

            Finally, the season had arrived, and yes, we were more excited than ever. The people, who were expected to return, returned.  We were all ready to go about our game plan from last year.

            But now, the season is really gaining its momentum, and some people are showing their true colors. I understand school, practice, and games are some sources of stress to people, but the drama isn’t caused by stress. There’s complaining, crying, attitudes, and egos. We have just about everything that we had last year including slight drama. And even worse, our coach is somewhat of an issue. Lately she’s decided to create tests and quizzes to evaluate how well we know the game of volleyball. Mind you, we have 2 hours of practice, and all this test business has been cutting about an hour and a half on practicing.

            We’ve lost to teams we shouldn’t be losing to. Who’s to blame for this so far? Should we blame the teammates for having a little bit of drama towards each other? Or our coach for cutting practice time down by creating quizzes like we’re in school? I don’t know, but I’m just ranting and venting. I need a little bit of insight on this situation, because I want to know what is REALLY going wrong with our team, and how we can solve the issue.